let it flow

abhorently lived a girl who was masquesrading as a woman being performing as though she was wiser than her age her years pass getting older but oh, so young at heart playful like a child yet the innocence is all but lost upon the horizon that is life loss lost love horrible oh horrible experience the squandering of each important morsel of her soul every time she lets go all of it gone away until the unownable is owned and an untrustable world is never to be safe again untrusting even herself she builds walls are erected with every new lovers erection eroding away the beliefs the once recognizable shoreline has shifted changed swept away to sea with the tides of life gone for good are her beliefs her hopes and dreams but hope floats and her dreams ran away the day he let her down the day he decided to abandon her leave her to fend for herself in this great wide world like a sheep among the wolves wolves ravenous because they are the only ones left on this earth since we have destroyed each other with greed need anger hunger famine allowing evil to creep in seep through every available crack and overcome all that was once good and pure and right she lives wrong the only way she knows how so unsure of how and why and where and when its all appropriate this girl she crashes through like a storm rolling through wreaking havoc but still its fun to stand in the midst of the gusts of wind and torrential rain like the tears that fall from her cheeks when she thinks of him... frozen rain beating down upon your face slapping you cold wet alone dark wind surrounding making rough beastly love to everything it touches
but.... this too passes and the aftermath of the storm leaves everywhere sunlight breaching the darkest of the cloud edges like her head once breached her mothers birth canal into this world she was born and here i am
calamity clumsily fumbling with the last pieces of hope piecing together the complex puzzle that is the future taken of the past remembering what i wish i could forget and yet not allowing it to repeat. she prays.