if only

i felt his arm brush across my lower back
and for a moment i wished it was you

i smiled and laughed
like we could be doing together, if you were here now

i walked our walk
slow and easy
past the restaurants
we ate in together

then i sat in the park
where we sketched
that saturday

strolled past the cinema
i wish we had been able to frequent
more often

just before bed i put on the lotion
we once used to massage each other
each night, before we'd...

yes, today, i thought of you.